Struggles

I have fibromyalgia. I wake up every morning in pain. Sleep can be difficult too because of the pain. I have medicine that helps but the side effects result in me feeling floating, drunk, drugged. So much so I can't do much beyond sit and stare or play a game I know so well I could play it in my sleep. An acquaintance ordered a hat from me that I have to finish soon but I can't focus long enough to finish it in one sitting. I worry that this pain, cramping muscles, and symptoms that are debilitation aren't fibro but MS.  I'm having trouble getting to see the specialist. I am so tired of fighting for everything I need. I just want to curl up and sleep forever.